I don’t blame anyone but me.
It was all on me. Always.
I couldn’t adapt.
I couldn’t fit this odd shape
into any gaps I found.
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I don’t blame anyone but me.
It was all on me. Always.
I couldn’t adapt.
I couldn’t fit this odd shape
into any gaps I found.
…
Today the nervous vibrations
Slow a little
Calm a little
…
I want to try something
It’s going to take a while
But I hope some friends will
Come along with me while they can
It won’t be easy
But I have to at least make an attempt
…
To paint love on their walls
Down those long hallways
Meandering through their mind
From yesterday to their future
I wish I could
For them, for all their kind warmth
I wish I knew how to do more
I wish I could do everything they need
I’ll have to settle for my presence
And occasional smiles
And when those fall
Yield in acceptance
That nothing lasts forever
January 9 – 13, 2025
Someday it will all leave, either
slowly,
a little at a time;
Or all that remains will be gone
in one swoop,
with the last beat of your heart
November 2024 – January 1, 2025
To those who keep me afloat over waves
Who hold me close under caring watchful eyes
Who anchor my feet to soil
When all I want is to flee
But all I need is calm love
You keep my earth turning
You keep my sun rising
You keep my moon glowing
Even in the darkest pitches of nights
So here’s to you, you wonderful ones
May I grow to be even half as good
As you deserve from me
December 29–30, 2024
Visiting a friend
Feet crunching on frozen snow
I am warmed inside
Loved and well rested
Hearing rain on window panes
I am real again
2024 has come and gone
As it comes to a close
I look back on it all
The joys and the woes
A year busy and full
Losses and celebrations
Successes and failures
Trials and tribulations
Planting our sticks
Through this hell of a year
One thing’s for certain
I’m so glad you were here
For M.
December 28, 2024
These precious few
I will serve them however I can
They may not want it
They may not ask for it
But whether they like it or not
I’ll give as I can
This is what I am!
This is how I’m human.
I withdraw and hide
Or fall silent for a time
As the need takes me
But I return when I can
With no less love than before
May I never lose to spite and bitterness
The side of me that brings me back
December 24, 2024
One of these days, I will hopefully find a way to properly honour you and what you have done for me.