fear – Under the Cedar Trees

Senryū 2025.04.04

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on April 4, 2025

Simmering envy
Seeing others bravery
Fearfully, I live

Haiku 2025.03.18

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on March 18, 2025

Whispering engine
Doubts creeping, should not be here
Among melting snow

Apx. 7:15 – 7:30 p.m.

Fears Rising at Dusk; Fears Fighting at Dawn

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on January 12, 2025

Some nights after twilight settles
Evening fears creep into view
Rolling into the night under that cold moon
Usually to fade with the sunrise
But only after they haunt
…

Secret Wishes Buried in Anonymity

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on December 6, 2024

… But then
I think of them seeing me from the inside out
I imagine their mind’s fingers combing the strands tangled in my shallows
…

Senryū 2024.12.02 1, 2

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on December 2, 2024

Another midnight
Unwanted awakening
Dread for forthcoming

Unease grips tightly
Mind plays friendships dissolving
Both past and future

Written upon waking just after midnight, slightly disturbed.

Wanting to be Wrong

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on November 18, 2024

Maybe the destination
Won’t be acceptance after all
Maybe it won’t be calm
Won’t be peace
Won’t be love…

Something is coming?

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on November 9, 2024

I feel like there’s something I’m not willing to admit to myself
But I keep getting closer to uncovering it
I feel like I need to. It’s part of the process. But I’m afraid it’s going to hurt
Maybe it’s nothing. Maybe it’s something, but not such a big deal. Maybe it’s not very painful at all. Maybe I’m overreacting to a minor discomfort. Maybe it’s something absolutely horrible, something I will hate myself for.