depression – Under the Cedar Trees

This Disastrous Loop

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on May 23, 2025

It steals laughs
It seals cries
It steals connections
Possibilities, futures
Faces from hands
Hands from backs
…

Day Turned Wonderful

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on April 26, 2025

I toss through the night
I wake feeling restless and uneasy
So before I make that same short drive
That I do all seven days of the week
I turn the dials a little higher this time
…

Isolation (on the need for); depression recurrence

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on April 22, 2025

Sudden thought today: when I feel a need to withdraw, to isolate, I think what I really need to do may depend on why I’m feeling that urge.

Remember This!

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on April 17, 2025

Glowing with moonlight
From a clear sky
After a wicked storm:
Remember this!

Tears, finally.

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on April 16, 2025

I cried three times in under twelve hours.
Maybe that’s some sort of progress.

That, or I’m getting worse…

I can’t tell.

Haiku 2025.04.15

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on April 15, 2025

No leaves have grown here:
This chilly spring reminds me
It all turns to black

There is only one fix.

Published by Lee Under the Cedar Trees on April 11, 2025

I’ve been wrong about a lot, but one big thing is that this can’t be fixed. It can be fixed! It can be fixed! It can be fixed! There’s one way. Just one.