…to experience the depth
The comfort and warmth found when
Reaching all the way down…
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…to experience the depth
The comfort and warmth found when
Reaching all the way down…
The moon is so bright in the early sky!
My breath comes easily,
My body feels a little lighter and moves easily on command.
The horizon lightens as I run,
Run, run, run,
Then run some more, faster this time.
The strings and melodies can reach me.
The bass and drums, the rhythm, push my cadence.
They touch the beast inside, placating it,
Soothing it and me.
Words from friends and allies ring true again.
The illusion of falsehood dissipates.
This is how I know that today is a day for relief,
That today is a day when I belong here again!
October 18, 2024
Not all hope is lost,
But it will run out when my energy does.
…
It’s holding for now,
But it won’t forever.
I hope I’m different
Just a little different
In the morning
Something is different now.
The whispering voice isn’t quite the same.
One day I may be just so tired of these return trips
I’ll just be done with it…
Right now it’s just a distant memory
As if long gone, but I know better
So now is the time to arm myself
Choose the weapons, don the armour
Smiling all the while, enjoying this time…
Understanding friendship is an ongoing process
Even at this age, apologetic for my ignorance
I stumble and trip…
Since you climbed in here over a decade ago
The world is different
My world is different
Your existence colours everything I see around me
outer façade
still / calm / steady / slow
layers down
vibrating / tight / tense / echoing
layers down down
screaming / hurting / bleeding / suffocating
layers down down down down
nothing left
October 9, 2024