I learned something important about myself today.
I need a best friend. Without one, I don’t feel whole.
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I learned something important about myself today.
I need a best friend. Without one, I don’t feel whole.
The simplest acts of kindness can enrich so much.
If they had never started doing those simple favours, we probably never would have gotten to know each other as well as we have
To my future self:
I will admit, I’m a little curious to meet you, but you are quite probably the biggest coward I’ve ever known.
Maybe, just maybe, I’ll be thankful later for your lack of conviction this year.
I wanted to tell him I had to get away, but couldn’t speak up. I tapped him gently on the lower back, a pat to communicate. I thought he’d understand. I thought he understands my silence now. He knows how this machine works. But this time, he didn’t.
Songs can really rewind us.
I cried three times in under twelve hours.
Maybe that’s some sort of progress.
That, or I’m getting worse…
I can’t tell.
Everyone makes distance
I get too close
Do I suffocate them?
I’m not human
I will never be
I’ve lived long enough
I feel so disconnected
I can’t connect
It’s so little so rare
I have earned nothing good that I have
I thought I’d be ok now
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April 15 – 16, 2025; Sitting in my car after a class.
I’ve been wrong about a lot, but one big thing is that this can’t be fixed. It can be fixed! It can be fixed! It can be fixed! There’s one way. Just one.
I’m here, and I’m not here. I shouldn’t be here at all… I’m blinking and fading in and out of existence…