Communication is Everything

Thoughts of you always swirling
Always present to some extent
Regularly coming to the fore
As so many things make me think of you

Since you climbed in here over a decade ago
The world is different
My world is different
Your existence colours everything I see around me 

I listen to what you’re trying to share 
I try to understand 
I can’t hold on to all of it
I want to hold all of it
But some of it always slips through the fingers
Of my cupped hands scrambling to grab it all 

I speak and shout
I strike on invitation, I follow and chase
I hold and whisper
Because it’s so important to tell you
What you are any way I can manage
You can hear so little of it
I repeat and repeat and repeat
Desperate to get something through

The only thing worse than the
Failures after failures after failures
Are the ones that hurt you
On the other side of that glass wall
Standing between us
Where I’m trying to meet you halfway 

Communication is everything
Every point of failure erases a little more of me
Until I’ll inevitably conclude
I’m nothing

October 10, 2024