Keep living as though the future is still coming, just in case it is.

I had a little flash of clarity a moment ago.

My mind wandered to the future and tried to think about 2027. It’s still a black hole, like it doesn’t exist. I feel myself pulled towards that reality, or rather, lack of reality, still. However, I’ve noticed that it:

1. feels a bit delayed compared to last year, and
2. is not strong enough to prevent me from living now as though that may not come to pass.

So… while I may not last that long (who knows, we’ll see) I’m continuing on in the meantime. Maybe, when that will starts to fade, that’s the next sign that things are progressing in a “bad” (?) direction.