Smaller and Smaller

2022. (Exact date unknown.)

Smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller and lesser and smaller and…. just fading a little more… every day… and shrinking smaller and lesser and smaller… and quieter and smaller and smaller but somehow still always in the way and never in the right place never exactly in the right place and never quite right and… smaller and smaller and unheard and unheard and unheard and can’t speak right time right place always small always small not heard every really heard and will die this way someday while still always shrinking and smaller and smaller and… always lesser and 2022 and still smaller and smaller and lost and smaller and always misplaced and never quite finding the right way and smaller and just want to be heard… and smaller and lesser and unheard and… why am I even here and lesser and silent and smaller then loud then smaller then smaller and lesser and smaller still and lesser and unheard and unheard and smaller and smaller and unheard and… shrinking and shrinking shrinking and smaller and still somehow still always in the wrong spot and smaller and smaller and always underfoot and always lesser and shrinking and smaller and lesser… and too loud and too much yet… lesser still and smaller… too loud and too much yet still smaller… and they’re all slowly dropping off and gone one by one… and lesser and smaller… and lesser and silent and silent and silent and silent yet shouting and smaller and smaller and smaller and screaming smaller and smaller and… disappearing when not in the way and invisible on the inside and shrinking and smaller and always here and smaller and smaller still and lesser… and misplaced and mispelled and smaller and lesser and quieter and trying too hard and lesser and smaller and lesser and in the way and smaller yet taking so much oxygen and lesser and smaller and inadequate and lesser and smaller and shrinking and smaller and silent and lesser and screaming inverted and smaller and smaller and and disappearing and smaller… and lesser and smaller and still smaller… and listening not deaf and listening and smaller and failing and reducing and smaller and lesser and smaller and lesser still yet in the way yet always always always in the way and never in the right place never big enough always smaller and screaming and smaller and silent and in the way and never in the right place never big enough always smaller and smaller and never right and not the right way and smaller and smaller and… and tinier and… quieter yet too much and supider and smaller and foolish and … always ever smaller lesser and … fearful of everything and smaller… and yet still smaller and swelling with unimportance and inconvenience and smaller and no one will read this and smaller and lesser and smaller and still and underfoot and lesser and smaller and always in the wrong place and always… never silent enough and smaller and somehow still in the way and smaller and smaller and unseeing and never silent enough and smaller and somehow still in the way and smaller and smaller and unhearing and… crowding and gone and smaller and smaller and lesser and too small and one day I’ll finally be out of the way